#SIGH

One free feeling
yet you pay for it!
One great feeling
you have to experience it!
Only a priviledge is
all I ask from God.
Seal my happiness
make my joy complete
bring me smiles do not falter
flatter me with reality
don't make me suffer in anguish
I look out and wonder
WHY????
Questions I can barely answer!...

Was love ever made for me?....hmmmmmm

This beautiful feeling is killing me inside. My heart is heavy.

Burning! as that which I want, I clearly cannot have.

I remember the last time I felt such connection hmmmmmmm...

Like two hearts strongly pulling to cling to each other.

The attraction I cannot help.

Indeed I feel helpless.

This love is hurting...... so much pain! makes my heart ache!

I worry for I know once again I need to wake up and

See that this time we are worlds apart...

Life is unfair!

But do I really accept this fate flung at me??

Was love ever made for me?

hmmmmmmmm........care gist!

There's nothing that hurts more than being unable
to help someone you care about out of sadness.
You feel hurt knowing they are unhappy.
Helpless knowing there's nothing you can do about it
Shut out as they wouldn't let you in fully
Angry because there might be a solution but you've been shut out.


That caring heart of yours begins to wonder!
how sad does it feel knowing you are both helpless?
drawn in by your thoughts?
feeling an emptiness within?
you try so hard but nothing really happens

Divine Love

What joy it is to be called yours
my one magnificent King
unworthy of your mercies
yet with all my filth
I stand before you.

You are not man
you are God
My God.

You make my joy complete,
answer me in times of worry,
shelter me in times of abject rejection
you stand amidst my deepest fears
and make them opportunities.

You have touched my life with your peace,
made me increase in all measures
called me from darkness,
brightened my nights!

Lord I love you!
with mere words your glory is unexplainable
your beauty indescribable
the vastness of your love is unimaginable
But I know you are the everlasting one
your name I will forever extol.

Prayer

Oh Lord
Do not turn away from me
Purge me of all iniquities
Purify my heart
Make it yours
Program my life
Make it just for you
Occupy my heart with thoughts of you
Bring me to my kneels oh Lord
Cause me to reverence you mighty father.

Your knowledge surpasses human understanding

I am but a child willing to learn from the father

Yet I weep!.. Weeping for compassion

I know your grace is sufficient for me

I stand here yearning for your love

Do not turn your back on me

I am that lost child whom with a sorry heart

needs you back in  my life

Come live in me Lord

for only your love is pure.