God's help

This is not one of my confused notes .. jst a plea to God ...In his wisdom.. I need his touch .... don't understand what my life's gonna be like in years to come

With one decision I make ..
several choices are made open to me ...
God!!!... I do not want to do this without you
I have neglected you
pushed you aside
gone astray
taken control of my life.
this one thing I have done
I know would haunt my everyday
I do not regret
yet I feel guilty
I come back to you oh Lord
Help me make the right choices .... hmmmmm

NOW....

Feels like a  part of me just died
and another sprout
My life has been a puzzle
A love puzzle
One confusion made it's place of rest
And I struggled with fears
Still I struggle to free myself
Bt slowly I give in to love
Open my heart and let love do it's magic.......

hmmmmmmmm...........

You don't wanna be overbearing
neither would u wanna be a pain
all to show you care
be natural
true to urself
no false pretence
cos life leads you to different places where
you need to stay constant
no attitude change
no change of belief!
Just stay true to who you are
all everything would fall in place for you ...

Jst a quick thought .....

,,,,,,,I just realised

u may love so many other guyz
meet so many amazing people..
But your first love would always hold that
special place in your heart
you may nt want to be together again
but thoughts of how he/she opened your eyes to love
just makes you smile
Love is magical ...
I wanna love again ......

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You know atimes I think  to myself
I do not deserve all the affection, love and care showered on me
I am surrounded by amazing people
People who love and care about me
people who treasure me
that it seems so unreal to me
but it is real
not in anyway making an artistic writing
just need to understand how to deal with so much love
and not hurt anyone
because my llife right now
hmmmmmm........
just at a stage where
I feel like running away from my own self
and getting someone else
to deal with this drama
I am caught between two walls
I NEED YOUR WISDOM OH LORD!.....

Life now

At a point in life
every guy you meet
says the same thing-
all wanna show affection
seranade you with sweet words
The truth seems so close
yet faraway.
Dialy you go on your kneels
pray the prayer of wisdom
"Oh Lord I need your wisdom"
your heart is torn
you feel troubled
you wonder why all the good words come at once
kind gestures, love, care and affection
you ponder on the words you hear
you worry for a mistake is costly
The right path you want to follow
tears you want faraway from you.
You crave peace!
Truely if that which is meant to give you peace
causes that heart of yours to worry
then it's not yours -MOVE ON!
For once I found joy, peace, happiness, friendship wrapped in one
but walls in strategic places robbed me one time of true happiness....