Fairytale?

"Why is  life not a fairytale ?"
Atimes I imagine myself in this romantic movie where the beautiful lady goes through so much heart ache and ends up with the man she loves.. where the man reveals how much he loves the lady and gives her this hug which makes her feel so secure...

still in that moment,....

slowly they pull apart and the guy with his blue eyes color like the sky and lady with eye like hazel sparkling like the stars...

The attraction pulls them together and slowly the guy pulls her close with lips touching and locked in the most mind bubbling, heart warming and soul binding kiss which creates the most beautiful atmosphere where even the the sun heats at the sight...

Fireworks exploding and beautiful memories replaying...

All from that  single moment...

Just a mere wish but truely lets face it life is no fairytale...
Savour the magical moment in your head as life is no movie.... I'll retrace my steps back to reality.

CHOICE

Woke up this morning feeling so emotional.. My heart was heavy I could hardly speak!.. I promise you when I had finished writing this my head became less cramped and my heart was relieved of it's heaviness.

Maybe I need someone to take your place

Maybe I hate feeling this way...

I can't help but dream!..

I've longed for the day I'll be yours and you be mine!

Like two heart walking side by side,

Holding hands.

Again and again I feel detached from you

I hate being the fool...My greatest fear!

Do I play the fool one last time and get the answer I seek?

It can only be love

Fused my heart with yours

Creating that spark when the energy's high

Causing my heart to skip beats....

Yet I stay alive

My tummy rumbles at the idea

Yet hunger's far from me

One thing!.. I either be the fool one last time

Or languish in my pool of tears. 

I encountered  a thief
stole my heart,
ripped it out,
designed it specially to love him,
paint my love with strange colours,
showed me the side of love I never knew
now I think I have fallen
madly,
tumbling deeply
into your love.
Please hold me soflty
for pain endurance is not my greatest virtue

Smiles all around

My heart
My love
My life
My happiness
Then I worried about everything
Now I choose to stay happy
Smiles rekindled
Joy's returned home
My heart's reached that happy state
There's so much I can say
My heart's made itself your home
Thoughts of you make my little heart float
Only the heavens can tell the joy I feel deep within ..

Love is far

If a guy knows what a lady truely thinks of Him... maybe she has tried so hard and now thoughts are bottled up... how sad it would be if bottled up thoughts are revealed ...
Had a chat with this lady and we spoke about certain issues and here's what she said to me when we spoke about her love life.........yeah she doesn't mind me sharing I asked .. so permission granted .. If you're gonna read this, read it like it's you saying it.. then it would make more sense and more meaning to you. and urs truely tried to make it rhyme abit to add a wee bit of the poetic feel...

I sit I Look and see .. Gosh!.. He doesn't care
No hope left to spare
Love ... it don't live here
My heart's ache is hard to bare
I look at Him with a deep stare
hoping to unveil his hidden self 
Yes.. sure he knows I care
But to speak for Him, .. I can't tell
I try so hard to draw him near ..
But still he's farther  than near
that pain, I can't but feel 
I look at him and think .. Why?, How?.. did I get myself into this
make myself love one who's very different from me
One who mostimes I can't stand
but for some strange reason.. I'm drawn to 
It's quiet hard as I have experienced love from another first hand ..#sigh
I don't know I can't stand it anymore .
He's shoved me aside
now I feel so helpless 
I'm made to be loved, I'm made to be treasured, I'm made to be adored, I'm meant to be cared for
but this, he wouldn't give to me

He trys so hard to make me be like him
He trys so hard to make me do things he does
yet I refuse
cos that's  not me
simply  isn't me
I know the path which I walk today is the right one
but he's decided to walk he's own path
It's like #thinking .. two people with binded hearts, similar minds  but different objectives
how can dat work? no it can't I think I need to give myself a wake up call, prioritise
do I really want him or is there something in him I have to change
the picture is so unclear to me
I can't see it's blurry
I've tried so hard to get the image of him I've got in my head.. But I just can't
seems like the badness has overcome the good .. How is that possible?
How is that really possible.. can badness overcome good ..
I'm here thinking why are we like this?..
I try so hard to do things not to hurt him .
but what you do, you think it's love. I find myself wrapped in thoughts of him .. still I find myself hating him
How is that possible? Is it really possible?

So many questions why is this though I haven't got answers..
it helps if u know wat is going on in the guys head.. bt all the same I'm as clueless as you are

#SIGH

One free feeling
yet you pay for it!
One great feeling
you have to experience it!
Only a priviledge is
all I ask from God.
Seal my happiness
make my joy complete
bring me smiles do not falter
flatter me with reality
don't make me suffer in anguish
I look out and wonder
WHY????
Questions I can barely answer!...

Was love ever made for me?....hmmmmmm

This beautiful feeling is killing me inside. My heart is heavy.

Burning! as that which I want, I clearly cannot have.

I remember the last time I felt such connection hmmmmmmm...

Like two hearts strongly pulling to cling to each other.

The attraction I cannot help.

Indeed I feel helpless.

This love is hurting...... so much pain! makes my heart ache!

I worry for I know once again I need to wake up and

See that this time we are worlds apart...

Life is unfair!

But do I really accept this fate flung at me??

Was love ever made for me?