*****STAND*****

Oh how it amazes me
I look at the past and ponder
what went wrong?
The future's bleak
why dream?
There ain't no future

I don't yearn for
the care I once had
nor that Love which
thou didst give me

A ll I wanted was truth
wouldn't question the truth you say
As I am one who doth trust

Blame my actions  on situtions
I ain't no saint yet with my all I try to be good

I've said this much yet you still find fault in me
I'd pat my back and say: Life ain't all rosey
strange and ugly things happen
I'd not be shaken
I'd stand firm and keep being happy

Heart of worship

A poem I wrote mainly to thank God for his endless grcae and favour.

When the world comes
crashing in on me
I turn to you Lord
and I find refuge.

When the pains of living
envelopes my thinking
I cry to you Lord
and you grant me solace.

When the wind of peace
sweeps my heart
I dance to you Lord
and you seal my peace.

Yet I have smeared your name
and seeked others
I run from you Lord
yet you draw me near.

Why then should my heart not sing
for only a man like you seeks no perfection in me
But purifies my heart daily
because you know I love you.

Slowly I have staggered out of your prescence
yet your endless grace finds me
your truth radiates and gives life
with my voice I will sing out and say
with a heart of worship I come to you.

Charm

In a dim lit room there you sat-
The most beautiful creature I've ever seen.
Your eyes like the sun
Your hair as dark as a Raven.
Hopelessly I stood and admired this creature who's features highlighted boldly every letter of this word CHARMING..
I look at you
and it feels like I've known this perfect stranger all my life.

Of course I was charmed , captivated by your presence else, what explains the long gaze I gaze I gave when I first saw you?
Darkness wouldn't dare hide your beauty
Reaching out to you.
Happily I would have you
Call you mine.
Because you are a treasure
My treasure!

I worry

No I'm not pissed. It only saddens my heart to watch you act this way... My heart beats faster, quicker than it really should.

No I'm not confused.

I'm only stunned! I don't understand you. Of course I try so hard but the more I try the harder it gets!..

Come!.. Help me!...

Save me from this pain. This anxiety you have bestowed upon me.

Do you have a heart? With your mouth you've watered my heart with those soft words. One that falls like droplets of finest waters.

I sit beside you and I'm embraced by your warmth and peace.

I gaze into your eyes and I see love and a burning fire.

The love, I want. The fire, it burns.

I melt at your presence.

Now what would you call that which I feel? Because right now, I fight with so many emotions. Feelings meant to be expressed but

I FEAR!

Just one act of your stupidity poses a question to me each time I try to let myself go "is it really worth it???...."...

I worry...:/