Reasons to appreciate family

You never know the worth of what you've got until
you see it slipping away from you
and all you can do is watch
because you can't do anything more ..
You never know the worth of a person
until they're no longer there
to make fun of your silliness
make fun of the way you speak
scold you for your wrong doings
give you a hug and tell you they love you
You would never know the worth of dad
until you are left alone to fix the things
he wouldn't let his princess do
until you need him to smile at you and be your rock
until you need him to put you in the right path
Appreciate what you've got .. Appreciate what you have
cause time lost with those who care the most about you
especially family.. is time lost forever
Because the love of your parents, siblings- immediate and extended is overwhelming when experienced ...

I love my dad, mum siblings... extended family ..
I've been showered with so much love and care from birth
and I'm appreciative because it's made me the happy person I am today!!..

Never been so scared of losing anything like I was today ... Bt I thank God for life!!!!.. :)...

hey.. it's funny how so many people read my blog but I can't see any comment or likes
from anyone of you.. anyway .... I've gt one noteI do not think I would
ever post it .. it's gonna be a struggle.. buhhhhhhh.. oh well we'll see hw it goes.. :)...

another thought

My thought on the 23/07/2012

Walking on eggshells around you
why place them there?...
you opened yourself first to love
now love you shut out!...
still tryina get what this is all about

last time!

I felt this way this week .buhhhh it's all gone with the wind!!!!!!.. forever!!!!!!... ...

Oh for one i know I'm not perfect 
Not a perfect woman 
With a perfect heart 
Nor do i have a perfect smile
 or perfect thought 
You've taken me just the way I am
"Just a lady"
 Even in my darkest moments
 You stand firm
 You hold me close so much
 I feel our hearts twined!
 You hear my every word 
And with your all you bring help
You radiate love
 I feel enraptured as i dwell in my thoughts of you
 I push you away yet you draw me neigh
 I go faraway yet you find me
 Like one who's lost that with makes him whole that's what you are
 My heart this day yearns to reach perfection just for you 
My soul crys for the peace I once knew 
My spirit calls for your smile which sets dat pedestal of joy in my heart
 This time my love would flow like the gentle wind.. 
Reach out to you and keep you for me
 My eyes would not water for i know you'll stay beside me 
I plead for God's love to touch this heart of mine
 Heal it and bring me fully to you
 Because you are the best 
And my best is all I want to give!..

Just something before I go to bed.. dnt really knw if it's true to you.. bt... Oh well.. :)

The amount of energy it takes to keep someone totally out of your thoughts is the same energy used to breathe in and out .. because as you breathe, you live ..... you think of that same person and wish he or she is there with you... It takes more to breathe at this time cause ur heart is heavy ... holding the thoughts of one you hold close and exerting much pressure as the heart beats!... Right now I cannot explain how I feel but I sure know something is missing... One thing I must do is look within and search for that which adds that glow to my smile and causes my heart to beat in peace. That no amount of sadness or bitterness can penetrate!... I want to be happy in all aspects.... Yes.. It's only a matter of time!...because everyone deserves true happiness.

NOW

Pardon my chit chat today.... but this is how I feel this very moment ......

Now this is a week I choose to stand for that which is true, I have battled with thoughts which have held me bound... Battled with happiness which has brought me so much tears .. Struggled which peace which has meddled with my joy and has again hurt others... Today... I stand firm.. I wanna take hold of things .. I would call on God daily as him alone knows what I want in life ... Atimes I wish I know God's plan for my future!.. I wouldn't bother which things!.. Yet I want him to have his way this very moment..... Woke up this morning with different thoughts in my head .. my mind wandering.. Yes wandering as I feel like a stranger to my own self... this is a week of self realisation .... Of course I knw what I need in live the now .. True happiness .. Only the way to go about it is what I want to know.... That's where God comes to play ... I have heard the words of wisdom everyone has for me... This day I hope I take my hold of my happiness and I know sound mind and voices of confusion playing in my head would seize!... I would play a song of joy as I would overcome all interfering thoughts ........even as I now walk in the path of silencing voices!.... .

I wonder

When it feels like there's a struggle
Atimes it comes naturally
Atimes you feel lost
You want to let it out
But wonder oncemore if it's right
Your heart still is split
It wanders...
I wonder if all this would end
If one day one would firmly silence the voices
Voices within far from my reach
Voices within I can't control
So many questions I can't bear to answer
For I know with one answer comes another thought
Too scared to let go... Fear's not mine yet
in this heart of mine ... it's resting place has it made
Still I wonder as it feels right atimes
But is it really right??.....